Staring at the abyss

I know how dangerous it can be, but when you love the taste of danger, staring at the abyss can only make you urge for the jump.

And jumping on you was such a rush!

I never actually imagined I would be this insane, I used to have everything under control, being so rational all the time. And then there was you...

How was I supposed to explain to my heart it was not a good idea to try to kill ourselves? I mean, that mountain was really high, but we had to do it anyways, right?

Thriller junkies that we were!

And when I finally realized I was so madly in love with you, there was no turning back.

I drowned into your ocean.

I consumed myself into the depths of your darkness.

I made you my happy place.

It took me a while to get used to living without the light, but I gotta confess I have never been happier.

Staring at your abyss changed me in ways I don't think I will ever be able to describe.

Even though I crashed and burned on my fall, you made me whole again. You gave me hope on things I thought I was never going to be worthy of.

Your darkness was my salvation, the beacon that showed me the path of greater things which may yet come to pass. Things I had already given up, feelings I was afraid go face, to feel.

Your abyss gave me strength to keep walking. To keep moving, even though my fears were trying to eat me alive.

I would never regret the day I decided to jump on you, that was the day I started to rebuilt.