I Won't Let This Build Up Inside of Me!

I know it is hate!

There is no other name for that.

It is so strong, that I can feel it in my blood.

It is the other half of me.

The part I refuse to be.

There is not a way to change it. But, even though I say I want to change, that's what makes me feel better.

I wish I could control it, but hate is a child that cannot be in prison. It is a bird that flies all over the world, going on and on, following the call of the spirit.

I know it is poisoning.

It eats me by the inside and tries to control myself.

It is so cruel that I have no strength to fight it.

I wish I could destroy it and set my soul free. But, even though I try, my power is not enough.

I know it is painful.

It kills me everyday.

It is beautiful and confuses my mind. And even though I claim for an Angel to save me, Heaven only sends me my own Demons.

But here, I tell you something:

- I won't let this build up inside of me!

My vermilion.

My passion.

My temptation.

My otherside.